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Dr.Sprock
Boulder climber
I'm James Brown, Bi-atch!
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May 31, 2015 - 01:21am PT
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18 months on the 26th, still hitting 2 or 3 meetings a day, the longer i stay sober, the closer i am to my next drink, my life fits inside a shot glass, what did i have to change? nothing but everything, soul building takes work, but so does drinking, still have problems but they are twice as easy to deal with than with the sauce, fear will keep you sober for a little while, when that wears off, we have to work with others to get out if our selves, otherwise, we are back on relapse boulevard, dang, gotta ditch the user friends, them or me, no more runnin with the pack,
restraint is my number one priority as i cease to fight anyone or anything,
weed helped, had fun, but i smoked like i drank, when i run out, there i go to the liquor store, gotta get a substitute for that life, gotta change my perception of the world, ran my own life, ended up tore up from the floor up, need a new manager, otherwise i'm toast,
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Jaybro
Social climber
Wolf City, Wyoming
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May 31, 2015 - 05:57am PT
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Well put
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Happiegrrrl2
Trad climber
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May 31, 2015 - 10:26am PT
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Seamstress, I am sorry for your sadness and your daughter's pain. Suprema wrote it right, though of course "knowing" those words are right doesn't do much to help us feel the rightness.
I have gone to just a few Al-Anon meetings, but when I did, the ability to comprehend the simple truthfulness in my powerlessness over the alcoholic/their disease was instantaneous, and the relief was considerable. Nothing like sitting in a room full of others dealing with just the same sort of issues to find consolation and acceptance that it is/was not our fault.
I'm doing good, sobriety-wise. In just under three months will be my 19th year anniversary, so long as I don't make the terribly poor choice of having a drink. I've waded through the pull of enough emotional tides now to feel confident that I can deal with life, no matter what comes, but even so, I don't take my luck in sobriety for granted. It could all be wiped away in a second.
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Seamstress
Trad climber
Yacolt, WA
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Thanks.
Convinced her that a little outdoor therapy would give her some outlet for her stress. She finally got outdoors and argued with the sky. Everyone has a struggle putting one foot in front of the other nearly every day.
Wishing peace for all.
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Bushman
Social climber
Elk Grove, California
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'Happiness in Short Supply'
In days gone by when I used get high,
Depleting all the world's supply,
I scared the pusher outa his mind,
When I shouted "More Weed!" in words unkind,
He slammed that door right in my face,
And the very next day he deserted the place,
Then I had a mind to quit that dope,
The cigarettes, booze, and the cannabis rope,
I went cold turkey and my wife did say,
"I like you way much better this way!"
And I ain't looked back got no regrets,
Cause the liquor and weed and the cigarettes,
Were makin me crazy and makin me sad,
Them fractures and stitches were hurtin real bad,
But none of my worries ever compared,
To troubles and woes of those that cared,
And the look they gave me was so sad,
Such wild and wicked ways I had,
So I gave it all up and turned a new leaf,
And saved us then so much grief,
So I don't smoke weed or partake of drink,
And really don't care much what folks think,
Ive smoked my share and drank my fill,
From Timbuktu to over the hill,
And really don't mind if other folks do,
Cause the grass is still green and the sky's still blue.
-bushman
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BLUEBLOCR
Social climber
joshua tree
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THAT'S a Beuty :^D
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Edge
Trad climber
Betwixt and Between Nederland & Boulder, CO
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Almost forgot!
Five years today. Yay me, and stuff.
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Jaybro
Social climber
Wolf City, Wyoming
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Yay Edge!
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BLUEBLOCR
Social climber
joshua tree
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1750 High Fives to ya Edge:)
Dr Sprock,,, How U dew'in??
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Dr.Sprock
Boulder climber
I'm James Brown, Bi-atch!
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doing fine, listening to Erik L from Edmonton, use to sleep in a dodge dart and drink horse piss,
360 tapes here for download>
http://www.aaspeakers.org/AA_Speaker_Tapes
Wesley P from Pompano is A#1 check it out,
have a great weekend,
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coolrockclimberguy69
climber
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Jul 31, 2015 - 01:02pm PT
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16 days. Feels like 30.
I'm going to be honest, I feel like a worthless peice of sh#t.
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Bushman
Social climber
Elk Grove, California
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Jul 31, 2015 - 01:16pm PT
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I say this with all the love in my heart that I can muster and for someone who is obviously laying it out there, truth be told.
Sometimes feeling like sh#t obviously beats the alternative.
Truth is good too.
I think you know where I'm going with this.
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hippielogger
climber
Townsend,Mt
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Jul 31, 2015 - 02:00pm PT
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Hey CRCG69,
Right now it's like learning to an incredibly challenging new job, on top of all the other stuff you have to do. We've all been there and felt that way. Be proud of the hard work you're doing. Own it!
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Capt.
climber
some eastside hovel
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^^^ Hello there brotha-man. :-D
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Happiegrrrl2
Trad climber
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Countdown to my 19th anniversary in three weeks. I remember back in early sobriety looking at the "old-timers" with 18 years with amazement, wondering how on earth they had been able to stay sober that long. Interestingly, it doesn't feel like it has been so long at all to me. I feel more like a bit over five years. Tie flies when you're able to remember it!
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Norwegian
Trad climber
dancin on the tip of god's middle finger
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i don't know. if i could
give a dip of advice to
a young, clean soul,
it might be something like this:
"don't f*#k with your chemical stasis.
because once you upset it,
you'll spend the rest of your life
trying to reattain it."
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tradmanclimbs
Ice climber
Pomfert VT
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Good job Edge! and happie. My 9th comming up aug 25th.
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Woody the Beaver
Trad climber
Soldier, Idaho
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Aug 15, 2015 - 11:58am PT
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13 years today! Thanks for all the laughs over the years, fellow adventurers! Last year, i forgot to notice the anniversary until a nice young lady on the top of Mt. Borah pointed out the date! Thanks, Rachel! Cheers to all,
Woody
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Bushman
Social climber
Elk Grove, California
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Aug 15, 2015 - 01:09pm PT
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On Near Twenty Six Years Sober
08/17/1989,
I woke that day to some clarity.
It was as if someone woke me by dumping a wheelbarrow full of bricks onto my face.
The epiphany was,
I was in some serious sh#t with the family, the wife, the heart, the health, the mind, and my life.
The result?
I got help.
Am still learning that almost everything I need, I already have in the first place,
less the addictions and compulsions,
plus more than I could ever have dreamed of.
But,
I discovered that most of my problems were of my own making.
The rest?
It’s just what happens to most of us along the way.
And,
my sobriety date lives on in the infamy of my mind,
That’s a good thing.
Plus the living sober reality of experiencing life.
Good experiences and bad experiences,
but still,
it’s a life.
Oh sure there is always more to want out of life.
But who could expect more than living?
-bushman
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coolrockclimberguy69
climber
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Aug 15, 2015 - 08:45pm PT
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thanks for the stoke, hippielogger. after three weeks it got a LOT easier.
made it a whole month as of last thursday (i think?). i was at a friend's bbq tonight and i fell off the wagon in two ways. i had some ribs and a bacon wrapped stuffed jalepeno (i'm a vegetarian but it was tasty) and i made a jack-lemonade-tonic which i consumed. that was it though. i just finished my drink and went home. didn't even get that buzzed but still didn't get any urges to keep drinking. i'm pretty proud of myself for going a month, though. i had a really nice epiphany the other night while i was driving around and thought "it is not possible for me to get a dui right now."
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