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hankw

Social climber
Camino, CA
Mar 12, 2013 - 05:44pm PT
This is probably the best thread I have ever read on any outdoor forum!
Grateful to be going on four years here but I also have relapsed in the past after having some time. Best not to be too hard on oneself , get up, dust yourself off and carry on
Jaybro

Social climber
Wolf City, Wyoming
Mar 12, 2013 - 06:23pm PT
It does get easier!
Hankster

Social climber
Golden, CO
Topic Author's Reply - Mar 12, 2013 - 06:29pm PT
I've played the
booze game
long enough
now to realize
I cannot win.

I know right? Wars OVER, we lost..
happiegrrrl

Trad climber
www.climbaddictdesigns.com
Mar 12, 2013 - 06:35pm PT
Yes, I have come to this thread time after time when there something affecting my emotional sobriety. And often enough, the thread was bumped by someone else just at the time I needed it.

I'm very tired today. The last few weeks have been very difficult, because for me, it's like my body has a battery like a car. I wore that battery down over the years and it takes an extremely small amount of emotional upset to completely take up whatever charge I have going.

For me, it is really imperative that I avoid stress in the forms that take me down, and recently, there has been no avoiding it. But so long as I don't pick up that first drink, I have a chance to move through and go forward.
Plaidman

Trad climber
South Slope of Mt. Tabor, Portland, Oregon, USA
Mar 13, 2013 - 01:00am PT
d-know hang in there man. The best is yet to come. Patience is difficult but it does pay dividends. One day at a time is not just a cliche.

Just take life as it comes and most of the most difficult things will pass. I have had some of the best life experiences sober and I have had some pain. But it is all worth it and the light at the end of the tunnel ain't a train. All the best to ya

Plaid
bvb

Social climber
flagstaff arizona
Mar 13, 2013 - 02:29am PT
This is probably the best thread I have ever read on any outdoor forum!

Agreed! This is a five-star thread for sure, expecially for us climbing junkies who are having difficulty making the never-before-contempated transition from warming up on hard routes to projecting old 5.10's, but dude...you shoulda been here for the "Boobs" thread! w00t w00t! Kept us all far too mesemerized by the exquisite grace and otherworldly beauty of the female form, to leave us any room in our pathetic old worn-down threadbare noggins fer stinkin' thinkin' n' drinking!
d-know

Trad climber
electric lady land
Mar 13, 2013 - 10:44am PT
Damn, yesterday was
rough. Minor w/drawl
symptoms and when it
got bad I kept coming
back to this thread and
will continue to do so
as I believe that I have
a kick arse support
in all of you.

Still got a long road to
travel but finally put the
rubber to the pavement
and that feels good.
Sincerely, thanks
to all.

Love and respect.
hankw

Mountain climber
Camino, CA
Mar 13, 2013 - 12:59pm PT
you shoulda been here for the "Boobs" thread!

Sorry I missed that :)
Plaidman

Trad climber
South Slope of Mt. Tabor, Portland, Oregon, USA
Mar 13, 2013 - 04:18pm PT
d-know hang it there man. Feel your pain. Pullin' for ya. Good vibes being sent.

What'cha doing for local support?

Plaid
Michelle

Social climber
Toshi's Station, picking up power converters.
Mar 13, 2013 - 04:36pm PT
making some major changes. been consuming waaaay too much. walked away from some unhealthy situations. having surgery in May and I'm considering a clinical detox on a ward for a week. thoughts on this?
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Mar 13, 2013 - 04:39pm PT
I find alot of strength from the posters here.

Climbers are a determined lot and it is no surprise that the folks here are working their programs.
happiegrrrl

Trad climber
www.climbaddictdesigns.com
Mar 13, 2013 - 05:37pm PT
Michelle - You'll find your way, if you keep putting one foot in front of the other with an eye on sobriety!

Though I am surely no expert, I would guess that a clinical detox is good for someone who is experiencing physical signs of withdrawal when they go without alcohol. It can be a dangerous thing to do, and can even be fatal, to go cold turkey - if one's body chemistry needs that booze to run. Clinical detox is a great way to transition through that phase.

For someone who is having issues staying away from booze due to emotional triggers, but has not yet gotten to the stage where the body depends on a stream of alcohol to maintain, a clinical detox might be a thing to do if one's insurance will pay the bill, or the cost is affordable. But.... without doing *more* to maintain sobriety, a detox in itself will serve to get the alcohol out of the system with some chemical assistance, but do nothing once the patient has flown the coop and is back roosting in the sh#t they drank over before the detox.

I wasn't at a physically addicted stage when I got sober, but have helped to see a few women off to be admitted for detox via walk-in. I have sat with a group of women as one pondered her inability to put together days when she so wanted to do just that, and considered a 30-day rehab program.

Whatever it takes, it takes. I remember being so jealous of that girl who went to rehab and came back with wonderful stories of the miracle which became her first month of long-term sobriety. SO wished I had gone to a rehab! I COULD have - even had insurance at the time. Grrrr - hahaha. But I guess I got what I needed.



Jebus H Bomz

climber
Peavine Basecamp
Mar 13, 2013 - 06:39pm PT
Yeah, Michelle, it would mostly be symptom management and prompt treatment of serious complications. The biggest thing is you have the peace of mind knowing you're in a safe setting. If you feel withdrawal symptoms (anxiety, confusion, tremors, fever, nausea, vomiting, lethargy, problems with logical thought, palpatations, etc.) setting in 6-10 hours after your last drink, it would probably be your best option.

I don't know all the nuts and bolts of settings clinical detox can occur in, although many would probably be a bit more palatable than the hospitals where I've seen it done. But many things are preferable to being in a hospital ;).

Also, from a medical perspective, drinking leads to some very ugly things. Jaundice, cirrhosis, hepatic encephalopathy, ascites, esophageal varices, etc.. Look those terms up, they are pretty ugly paths to go down.

My own detox was pretty smooth when I quit, but I was also on opiates for pain management at that time, so there may be a reason. I'm off everything but caffeine now, and very thankful I'm calling the shots in my life nowadays. Free and proud is the way to be, I hope we all get there before we go!
Vegasclimber

Trad climber
Las Vegas, NV.
Mar 13, 2013 - 11:52pm PT
Hey Michelle, thanks for posting up. I know you've been working on this for a bit, and I'm happy to see that you are looking at your options.

Happie and Jebus' posts have some good stuff in them. Detox programs can be super helpful if you're at the physical dependence level. In my case, I got "enforced detox" - in other words, I got locked up and had to suffer. I would have been a lot better off in a clinical setting, for sure.

Like Happie said though, detox is only part of the issue. Once you get out, you need to really concentrate on a support system to deal with your triggers. I've seen a lot of people detox and then come right out and go back to drinking. So if you're going to build a recovery plan that starts with detox, make sure to have something in place for when you get out.

Keep at it, we are all here for you if you need to talk or need support - my inbox is always open.
Plaidman

Trad climber
South Slope of Mt. Tabor, Portland, Oregon, USA
Mar 14, 2013 - 12:08am PT
Michelle detox could be a good thing. If it is a 30 day thing it will give you a leg up and could add good things to the mix. The safety thing would be great as it will add to your peace of mind.

I once tried to detox a friend of mine that couldn't get into our local dryout center. I just sat on him for a few days. Didn't realize till later he was trying kick crack at the same time. WOW that guy was loopy.

You don't want me to sit on ya. I could hurt ya in my inflated state. What state am I in? oh yeah Oregon!

Go to detox, treatment, whatever it takes. We are here for ya.

Plaid
Stevee B

Mountain climber
Oakland, CA
Mar 14, 2013 - 03:25pm PT
23 years this past month. Grateful, grateful, grateful.
Michelle I may have suggestions for a detox in the Bay Area if you are around these parts.
Michelle

Social climber
Toshi's Station, picking up power converters.
Mar 14, 2013 - 03:40pm PT
hey thanks everyone for the support. the cost of detox is free, treatment is free etc through the VA. I'm lucky. and grateful. I am close to my support system via the VA, but that's mostly for PTSD. I have no problem sharing my situation (hey, could help someone!). I spent 9 months inpatient treatment (1 mo short rehab, 2 mo PTSD inpatient, 6 mo in a homeless rehab program). It's not recommended that I return to a program. It's not even recommended that I go to a short term detox. I have an upcoming surgery in May and I don't have much confidence about not drinking. maybe I'm just looking for an easier answer than doing the work. this is like my 40th rodeo.

I find that I don't really want to let it go. head full of AA and a beer in the hand is no way to go, I understand. I have made some uhm, personnel changes in my personal life to set myself up for better success. I guess I'm going to have to make A Decision. dunno. leaving my buddy beer is easier than breaking up a relationship.

just a rant here, but I get tired of being judged because I'm trying to evolve. I could easily live the bum life like I did for so many years. It's annoying when some bum looks down on me for being in therapy. "I'M NOT the one in therapy!" like, seriously? that's not empathy. /rant

thanks folks, I mean that

Seamstress

Trad climber
Yacolt, WA
Mar 14, 2013 - 05:13pm PT
Pay no attention to the people that sabotage. Focus on YOUR progress and walk around them.
bvb

Social climber
flagstaff arizona
Mar 14, 2013 - 05:15pm PT
Yes! Talk, talk, talk. You're doing it right Michelle. If you think booze might be holding you back from the happiness you so clearly deserve, just stop for awhile and see what happens. Considerer it a recon into potentially fertile and strategically desirable high ground. Wadda ya got to lose? I lost PLENTY before I finally gave up and ecided to get my life back. You go girl.
Norwegian

Trad climber
the tip of god's middle finger
Mar 16, 2013 - 07:39pm PT
oh, and being a drunk
is a multi-faced, tiered extistence.

like the glee and light-heartedness during
those moments of sinclair,
they clash titanically with the middle of the night
headaches and wretched dreams of sorrow and fear;

like the mad wife vs. the lone-drunken kayak down
poppy littered drainages;

the fat-ugly-gut-bleeding-liver versus the endless smile;

like the nonsense versus the worry;

like the bills flying outta my wallet versus the aluminum redemption;

like the devil's genitals cumbusting within god's reproductive cylinder;

like nothing versus all.


so i just ask myself,
"is the midnight misery worth the high-noon hijinks?"
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