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johntp
Trad climber
socal
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HaHa! Maybe I'm projecting....
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Flip Flop
climber
Earth Planet, Universe
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This is a good taco stand. Climbing is just a thing that we do. Life is what we share. Thanks for bringing the life.
[Click to View YouTube Video]
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Norwegian
Trad climber
dancin on the tip of god's middle finger
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it's a banged up world
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Patrick Sawyer
climber
Originally California now Ireland
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Topic Author's Reply - May 5, 2015 - 12:01pm PT
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Flip Flop, I watched the video. It made me cry. Tami, you are so right. But today I do not feel right. It is six months, and Jennie is not in my life.
I know I am being a cry baby. I know that she is in a safe and secure environment. But I miss her. She would watch me climb, and was always afraid for me. I am sorry folks, I just want to cry.
I really should not be using the Taco Stand to air my grief. But I do appreciate having such an outlet.
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BLUEBLOCR
Social climber
joshua tree
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I too had a 69 2002
She caused the sparkle in my eye.
Lowered, stereo, tinted windows, surf rack
And an engine that could make the tires fry
We spent many a day at ElCap state beach
Long before I knew a man could climb a crack
One little philly did like the way I could hide in a tube
So much she got me to follow her home with a peek of her boob
Now her house, her house by American standards was a castle
Electric gate, brick driveway and 10,000 sq ft of pure fantasy
Her mom was cool, she liked greyhounds(the drink) then to rassel
Standing on her pulpit she said there is one problem though
That piece of shite Bimmer has got to go
It doesn't belong with our decor dont'cha know
But I'm a man of little means without much greens I sez
Whenever she opened her purse out jumped money like that ol'skool candy, pez
That day she threw me keys to a brand new camero z28
Take this from now on when your with my daughter on a date
Jus never again drive that 69 Bimmer through my gate
I thought, that's a powerful gesture and a generosity that could only come from above
I looked at her, I looked at it, I looked at her, she said why do you hesitate
Ma,am if I told you i still don't think you'd have clue
Sure money can buy most things but for sure not my love
So I waved goodbye and went sputtering off in my 1969 BMW 2002.
Cheers!
BB
Edit, thanks Jaybro,Yep!
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Big Mike
Trad climber
BC
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My hearth aches for you Patrick. If there is one thing i have learned, it is love is never easy. Neither is life, and were it, wouldn't be worthwhile.
Best of luck sir.
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Patrick Sawyer
climber
Originally California now Ireland
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Topic Author's Reply - May 6, 2015 - 04:16pm PT
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Survival, that link now works for me. I remember that song.
I was on to The Samaritans this evening for over an hour, the gal who was listening, Ann, really helped me think about certain things. And like just about everybody else, she cannot understand why I can't see Jennie. Well, I am told Jen does not want to see me, then she does, and then doesn't. Dementia really does suck.
Then again, I only have the social worker's word, and the independent advocate's and then Eileen's (Jen's sister in life and closest friend), who say that Jen is adamant and consistent in not wanting to see me. I just know, well feel, that if I could see her once, she may want to see me again. A vain hope? Wishful thinking?
I wonder if she remembers me. I wonder if she gets the letters I write. I do not trust the nursing home owner, and I am not the only one. Eileen, Mary (our GP) and I wonder if small whispers in Jennie's ear by staff, my cousin Ann, a prominent doctor of psychology in Los Angeles, also has wondered. I told the social worker that I think she is in collusion with the NH owner. She bristled. Jennie is a low maintenance resident, very personable, it would "pay" the NH to keep her there for years.
Or am I just be paranoid?
Bloody cold today and the rain was torrential during last night/this morning. And the boulders are still soaked, some sort of myolite (sp?) solid, not choss, but not very big either
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BLUEBLOCR
Social climber
joshua tree
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What about somebody you both know that could go in and talk on your behalf
Maybe take her some flowers with a note from you?
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Patrick Sawyer
climber
Originally California now Ireland
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Topic Author's Reply - May 6, 2015 - 05:55pm PT
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My landlord has talked about seeing her but he is London looking after his mom, and practicing optometry, though he still has a practice in Dublin.
Eileen would be well placed, Jennie loves her, however Eileen, who lives in Dublin a good three hours from the nursing home, she has her hands full being a full-time carer for her husband (two stokes, wheelchair bound).
I did send her flowers and chocolates on her birthday, April 9. I guess she got them. I don't know as the social worker has not been very forthcoming about some matters. In fact, I haven't dealt with the battle axe for about two months.
She is dismissive of me and I told her I did not trust her. I sort of made a mistake also telling her that Eileen and Mary, our GP, does not like her. I shouldn't speak for other people.
That is why I took it to mediation, to get some answers. The social worker and her team leader were still a bit economical on the facts. The two mediators at the meeting did get the concession that Eileen can contact Jennie again.
One of them, Cora, said, as we were walking to our cars: "Patrick, Jennie is happy and she is healthy. She has a team looking after her. You did it on your own for years, it is no longer a one-person job." Some consolation I suppose.
My landlord has still offered to pay for a solicitor and court costs so I can take it before a judge. I don't know, I don't think I would win the right to see her if she doesn't want me to.
Thanks people for letting me bend your ears, it does help me.
Cheers
Patrick
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