The Flames.

I'm suffering the same symptoms. A Mid life crisis -sort of thing? A need for recognition?
Given that Mid-life risks, are far greater and less recoverable from, reduced scope of dreams, realization that as great as my past deeds may have been at the time,
now they are not even considered Worth preserving.
All contribute to the sense that if I just yell loudly into the wind, some one, any one will hear.
So I don't expect to much from that,

So this is predictable but my wife made the soccer mom cut, but I was immediately offered
An assistant coach option, this is the fast track to sitting some one down in the child-revering game. I knew this, & now, my ankles & knees are for climbing only. So I declined.
My daughter dropped out after 2 yrs of lots of ~kick & chase, push each other ~ style soccer.

The boy , however made travel team went for five years till it was evident that he was going to sit at every game. ,!!
The only reason we could find for this was that a family had an employee Slash employer
Retaliation ship with a kid who didn't not like to play the whole game or at all but his folks the employees were tasked with taking more, other players to & from, and drive to away games.
I travel with a dog, the overwhelming group, they type in the majority is not dog adjusted, Infact given the type of Shepard dog I have, most everyone was dog averse.

It felt like Failing my son, until the employee / employer link was shown me. Then in hopes I'd raise a ruckus, we were asked,to put him back in travel soccer. Told the invited to try outs, were a formality, assured youth soccer wanted to be inclusive, ya da ya da

What ? A year later? Having changed his whole training & trajectory. Missed the 11 year olds
Bonding as a team having to have been sat for no reason?
My son said no thanks those kids are kinda the dumb, in trouble all the time.

is it a skip generation thing?
I was a hell raiser from 5 both my kids handed the keys to 34 mph go- karts,
Went slowly around, not ever fully grasping to try to race or go as fast as possible.

it was really the creeping lowering of strict ( silly, contrived to increase the difficulty of the rules of the game, rather than the activity it self) ethics of ground up no weighting the rope or any gear 'rules' followed religiously, for about 2 decades, leading to the very thing that saved rock for this generation to use ( use-up?) I think that the technology is now equal to the task of long term safety.))) yes I've not slept it shows. ,,.. May