My name is Steve, I'm an alcoholic.

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nature

climber
Boulder, CO
Dec 8, 2015 - 05:23pm PT

I suppose it will be a huge brain-chemistry change too. That will be weird.

Yeah... you'll be voting for Bernie in no time.
bluering

Trad climber
Santa Clara, CA
Topic Author's Reply - Dec 8, 2015 - 05:26pm PT
You'll be able to drive now any time you feel like it. Tacos at midnight? Hell yeah!

You'll have more cash in your pocket.

You won't feel like crap in the morning - at least not from drinking the night before.

So it's not all uphill from here. Good lick!


Yeah, It would be nice to jump in a car and take my kid somewhere without wondering how many beers/whiskeys I'd had.

I never did, and that's why I never get to take my son anywhere alone. Like bouldering.

That's a shame. A disgrace.

EDIT;
Yeah... you'll be voting for Bernie in no time.

Hehe, touche! (I doubt it though)
murcy

Gym climber
sanfrancisco
Dec 8, 2015 - 05:26pm PT
Wow, Bluering, I can't believe you'd own up, on an internet forum, to the fact that your name is Steve. :-) Send this one.
Capt.

climber
some eastside hovel
Dec 8, 2015 - 05:35pm PT
Proud of you bluering. Those alcoholic seizures are nothing to take lightly. Had a friend years ago die from one. Had another I know that decided he would quit cold turkey. Five days into it he had a seizure at a diner and his heart stopped. Luckily a lady at the next table was a nurse and revived him. It's good you're realizing enough is enough. I don't want to go too deeply into it (at this point) but I've had one as well. Was life-flighted and woke up in Renown. Not cool. I'm positive this is why they want to monitor you initially. Best of luck and again, you're doing the right thing.
Delhi Dog

climber
Good Question...
Dec 8, 2015 - 05:38pm PT
I was just thinking about you yesterday (I know weird) and wondering how you've been.

As Ghost wrote we sure haven't agreed on much of anything over the last few years but damn man I wish you the best! Slay that dragon that's been riding your back.

Seems you have a lot of support here. Keep that in mind.
bluering

Trad climber
Santa Clara, CA
Topic Author's Reply - Dec 8, 2015 - 05:42pm PT
Thanks, Capt., the seizure/passout is terrifying. That was it for me.

And yeah, until I start the process I am still sipping a beer slowly, I'm working through all the insurance BS. It will be over very soon. Or, I guess it will all begin.

Should be tomorrow or the next day.
Braunini

Big Wall climber
cupertino
Dec 8, 2015 - 06:34pm PT
Quitter!
pleasantOs

Trad climber
Dec 8, 2015 - 06:41pm PT
Just for today. EZ does it!
Crimpergirl

Sport climber
Boulder, Colorado!
Dec 8, 2015 - 06:47pm PT
Maybe a weird thing to say, but this is great news! I am happy you are seeking the help you need to be there for yourself first, and for your family second.

I think you know that though this site has more than its fair share of knuckleheads and knuckle-draggers, you have a lot of support here (and have for many years though maybe it wasn't so clear). Thanks for letting us know!
nita

Social climber
chica de chico, I don't claim to be a daisy.
Dec 8, 2015 - 07:02pm PT
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Wow.. Wow.. Wow..Good for you Bluey!!!....Think of all the money you will save...... Not only will your wife and son appreciate you quitting alcohol, so will your liver and body.

Good luck on your journey and remember.. you are not alone.

This is an inspiring thread......I look forward to seeing a post by you there.
http://www.supertopo.com/climbers-forum/1087464/Sobriety-off-topic-or-not

Saludos...that means~ best wishes.
Nita..
Lurkingtard

climber
Dec 8, 2015 - 07:02pm PT
Right on Steve. Good luck. There is already a thread for you guys.

Step one.

Try not to be the center of attention.



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Fritz

Trad climber
Choss Creek, ID
Dec 8, 2015 - 07:04pm PT
Bluering! Glad to see you are going for it. Hope all turns out for the best in your life.
Bushman

Social climber
Elk Grove, California
Dec 8, 2015 - 07:06pm PT
It takes great courage to take the first step and admit to yourself and others that we are alcoholics. I took this first step with great difficulties, but stuck with it and have had a second chance at life. You can do it too, Bluering, and this experience can be a light at the end of the tunnel and a beacon of hope. Recovery only comes to those who can recognize that they need it the most and you have already crossed the threshold with your admittiing that you have a problem with drink. Best of luck to you, man.

-bushman

Edge

Trad climber
Betwixt and Between Nederland & Boulder, CO
Dec 8, 2015 - 07:15pm PT
Steve, I have walked this same path that you described in your original post. It took me three stints in rehab over the course of two years, and a lot of work once I left that facility for the last time: 135 AA meetings in 120 days when I got out, then 3x week for a year (substitute "spirituality" for "religion" in the AA dogma and work with whatever that means to you. The former stands alone, but the latter does not.) Many stay in AA forever, but I went a different way after a while; same goal, personalized path to get there. Don't ever get stagnant or complacent.

Work hard, and reclaim your own power-I got mine back 5 1/2 years ago and life surpasses anything I could have imagined.

You need to be SELFISH! Tell your family that you need to focus 100% on yourself for as long as it takes, because distractions lead to unwanted thoughts, and once that thought is planted it will grow into an action eventually. Those actions can take away everything you ever have or will love and leave you with no soul.

Don't be afraid to stumble, just be honest with yourself and keep getting back up. The summit is a long ways away, but the views from there are great. Best wishes.
Contractor

Boulder climber
CA
Dec 8, 2015 - 07:34pm PT
Please do Steeve, don't hesitate!

My sister started drinking and using at the age of 15. She continued through her adult life with the occasional stay at a cushy rehab center. The only sobriety and peace she ever knew was due to her AA family and sponsor. They were the only people that saw through the con game, called her out, kept her close and accepted her unconditionally- they were amazing and they fought for her!

Sadly she turned from us, her 16 year old son and her AA family last year and hung herself on Mother's day.

Peace...



Ed Hartouni

Trad climber
Livermore, CA
Dec 8, 2015 - 07:39pm PT
best of luck to you bluering
wishing you the best as you make this very difficult journey

Steve Grossman

Trad climber
Seattle, WA
Dec 8, 2015 - 07:45pm PT
We're all pulling for you Steve and you will come through this a stronger, clearer and more present person.

Keep us posted and don't hide out if it gets tough.
couchmaster

climber
Dec 8, 2015 - 07:48pm PT

I agree with everyone else. Congrats on both recognizing you have a problem and also seeking to fix it. I wish you nothing but the best, hang in there and life will get better. You might even start voting democrat.:-)

bluering

Trad climber
Santa Clara, CA
Topic Author's Reply - Dec 8, 2015 - 07:49pm PT
Edge, thanks! That helps.

Contractor, sorry for your loss.

I did start this thread for selfish reasons. I figure if I let my fellow climbers know what I'm planning, it will give me more inspiration to not let people know I failed. I hope it will inspire me. So, it is a bit selfish.

I just know this is the right thing to do right now for me. I know it.
pyro

Big Wall climber
Calabasas
Dec 8, 2015 - 08:01pm PT
good call

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