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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Original Post - Jan 11, 2011 - 09:27am PT
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Feels good to just let it out sometimes. But it is dark and don't want to wake the neighbors.
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Michael Hjorth
Trad climber
Copenhagen, Denmark
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Jan 11, 2011 - 09:47am PT
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I know how you feel! And here it is GETTING dark!
Just thinking about biking home through this:
makes me scream...!
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 11, 2011 - 09:51am PT
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Just not feeling good. Frustrated.
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Jaybro
Social climber
Wolf City, Wyoming
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Jan 11, 2011 - 09:59am PT
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Acoma mug?
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 11, 2011 - 10:07am PT
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Acoma mug?
Is that a comment about my face?
The cup is Acoma inspired, perhaps. Bought at Messa Verde National Park.
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Lynne Leichtfuss
Trad climber
Will know soon
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Jan 11, 2011 - 10:17am PT
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Your Threads and posts are always so positive (not that this one isn't. It's grate to let it rip sometimes :D)You must be feeling crappy. I'm sorry. I will remember you in my thoughts and prayers today. Peace, lynne.
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 11, 2011 - 10:18am PT
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Thanks.
Some days it seems the whole world is doing this:
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Ihateplastic
Trad climber
It ain't El Cap, Oregon
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Jan 11, 2011 - 10:41am PT
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Michael Hjorth... Great shot! Excuse me for my ignorance, are you a pro photographer?
Anyone know?
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Michael Hjorth
Trad climber
Copenhagen, Denmark
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Jan 11, 2011 - 11:08am PT
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Thnx, IHP!
No!
Not a professional photographer
Not a professional climber
Not a professional biker
Anything else - just not these three!
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wildone
climber
Troy, MT
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Jan 11, 2011 - 03:17pm PT
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Hey Paul/Disaster...
Did you date an HSU professor named Diane when you were up there?
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JOEY.F
Social climber
sebastopol
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Jan 11, 2011 - 04:02pm PT
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Hey Paul, Vincent Price says screaming kills The Tingler, maybe it works for tumors too. Sure hope you feel better.
MH, that's one great photograph!
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 11, 2011 - 04:03pm PT
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Did you date an HSU professor named Diane when you were up there? No. That was my friend and co-worker at Adventure''s Edge, Jeff. We do look like we could be related.
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couchmaster
climber
pdx
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Jan 11, 2011 - 04:21pm PT
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I've lost 2 friends to malignant melanomas, I'm hoping that the experimental stuff you are doing works for you and the whole parade of new beneficiaries that will be needing it tomorrow Paul.
Hang in there!
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SCseagoat
Trad climber
Santa Cruz
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Jan 11, 2011 - 05:51pm PT
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Thinking of you! Love the pout pic. Toddlers so have the pout dialed in. Is that in a camper? It's looks sooo cozy. Susan
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healyje
Trad climber
Portland, Oregon
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Jan 11, 2011 - 06:02pm PT
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Step outside for a moment and beat on something with #13 - bound to be therapeutic...
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Ezra Ellis
Trad climber
WA, & NC & Idaho
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Jan 11, 2011 - 06:43pm PT
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Hope you are felling better Paul,
I love your posts!
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 11, 2011 - 09:20pm PT
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Sorry for the bitch-thread, but I woke up at 4 am with:
-back pain like a chisel and D5 hammer in my spine.
-bigger tumors and pain in my groin and joints.
-a headache
-dizzy and woozy
I have an appoint. tomorrow in SF to see if I stay on the anti-cancer pills.
Tooke a nap and was awoken by a call from a medical bill collector!
Nerves are shot.
I went from this:
To this. In just a matter of months!
Got a little better for a while. But I feel it coming on again...
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mud
Trad climber
CO
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Jan 11, 2011 - 10:10pm PT
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Paul, stay strong brother.
Positive Vibrations!
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corniss chopper
climber
not my real name
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Jan 11, 2011 - 10:14pm PT
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One thing that'll make me say AAaaaaaarrrgggghhh is the Yosemite mosquito!
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SCseagoat
Trad climber
Santa Cruz
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Jan 11, 2011 - 10:21pm PT
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Wish I could bring you a cup of tea. Susan
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bluering
Trad climber
Santa Clara, CA
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Jan 11, 2011 - 10:25pm PT
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Dude, keep up the faith. In yourself, your family, and God....even if you're not a spiritual man. This is a good time to embrace spirituality.
Hang tough, man. I'll pray for you.
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Michael Hjorth
Trad climber
Copenhagen, Denmark
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Jan 12, 2011 - 12:48am PT
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Hi Paul,
I completely misunderstood your first post, sorry.
I feel for you - stay on!
Kind regards
Michael
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 12, 2011 - 12:58am PT
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How could you misunderstand "AAAARRRRHHHH?????????????????"
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 12, 2011 - 01:23am PT
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Pop, Pop, pop.
I start to drop.
And my mind
lights up
as I fall.
Bing bang, boom.
Down to my doom.
On to
the next
go-around.
Whenever I plummit,
I bounce back quick,
even stronger than before.
No just laying there
like a Splat on the floor.
I am a rebound,
a trajectory traveled
at high speed.
I am the Seed
of my own future.
-Paul Humphrey
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 12, 2011 - 01:29am PT
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OK. That was wierd. As I posted the drawing I thought "THis looks like something Tami Knight might have done." (true!) Don't know why....
Do, do, do, do,do :D
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nita
Social climber
chica from chico..waiting on spring days..
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Jan 12, 2011 - 01:39am PT
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Paul, I was just listening to Van Morrison, Ballerina
The last poster in the music video was describing Van's singing... and the words he wrote reminded me of your writing style.
"All human emotion are crystallised here, and subtly vocalised: desire, joy, world weariness, consolation, awe , anticipation and hope."
Paul, we are all pulling for you.. sending out hope, crossing fingers,sending healing thoughts and prayers.
AAAARRRRGGGHHHH!!
Saludos.
nita..
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 12, 2011 - 02:02am PT
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Thanks for everyones' thoughts.
Make that ARRRRRRGGHGHGHGHHG into a MIGHTY YAWP!!!!
Ahh, Whitman
I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world.
I also like this:
I am of old and young, of the foolish as much as the wise,
Regardless of others, ever regardful of others,
Maternal as well as paternal, a child as well as a man,
Stuff'd with the stuff that is coarse and stuff'd with the stuff
that is fine
Here is the whole poem:
Song of Myself
By Walt Whitman
1819-1892
http://www.daypoems.net/poems/1900.html
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Lynne Leichtfuss
Trad climber
Will know soon
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Jan 12, 2011 - 02:29am PT
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I don't know what to say.... haven't really posted on your threads cause they bring back memories and sometimes life isn't fair and I want it to be and it hurts to see people suffer. I want to help, but sometimes one can't change what's happening to others and frankly it hurts and sucks and is incredibly painful.
I do think about you alot and pray. I know there is an invisible world out there that is more real than the one we live in. Our touch, see, feel world is so narrow, so small. We have something in us that will live forever. Some call it soul. Whatever, I know it is real and exists. When the we, we are, no longer breaths we enter this invisible world of soul.
Like the great explorers and climbers of the past prepared for their adventures, we should get ready for ours. Plot the course and make sure to take the time to get all the beta for this next great adventure. You are so in heart, mind, thoughts and prayers.......I've lived this with the one I loved the most.
Above all Peace, lynne
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all in jim
climber
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Jan 12, 2011 - 02:46am PT
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Hey Paul,
So sorry to hear you are hurting. Is the prognosis not good?
I'm hoping you recover.
Jim
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 12, 2011 - 02:48am PT
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haven't really posted on your threads cause they bring back memories and sometimes life isn't fair and I want it to be and it hurts to see people suffer.
I know what you mean. I worry that this decision I made to live this out in public, as it were, will be viewed as a giant "Poor ME". Hope not. I could have posted on a cancer bord, or blogged. But then it would only be read by other cancer sufferes who already know how life suck with cancer.
It is a choice to be in unexpected places to reach people with a mesage. And Climbers are a group I care about, for some reason.
Much love to all.
Off to bed. Up early to go to UCSF Mt. Zion for more Doctor land.
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Wayno
Big Wall climber
Seattle, WA
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Jan 12, 2011 - 02:53am PT
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As i started to read this thread and feel the emotion and pain, I thought of what could one say in such a situation to give some hope and then I got to Lynne's post and dropped some tears on my keyboard. Right on, Mama!
Get well, Mr. Master. You have value to some of us here.
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JOEY.F
Social climber
sebastopol
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Jan 12, 2011 - 03:00am PT
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Sweet Dreams, DM.
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Lynne Leichtfuss
Trad climber
Will know soon
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Jan 12, 2011 - 03:14am PT
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Mr. Master, I am so glad you have posted your threads here. Heart hurt as they may cause some of us to be ..... this is the life, the real life of planet earth and we are only here to be here for each other. Love to you and your family. lynne
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ß Î Ø T Ç H
climber
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Jan 12, 2011 - 04:42am PT
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In all seriousness, you are prettty-much screwed if you are complaining about anything. Jesus already bought back your (every) solution. A quick fix might be listen to some Norvel Hayes and/or Kenneth Copeland Mp3s or tapes.
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stevep
Boulder climber
Salt Lake, UT
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Jan 12, 2011 - 09:33am PT
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Definitely not a "poor me" thing. Having had my own brush with cancer, I very much appreciate how public you've been. I thik it is healthier for our society if these things are not hidden away.
Good luck and hope you feel better.
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Iclimb5.1
climber
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Jan 12, 2011 - 12:58pm PT
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Hey Paul,
Vicky here. Just want to let you know that Jeff and I have been following your posts and we are really happy that you are writing about your experiences. You love writing and it’s good to see you doing what you love! Keep it up. Jeff especially enjoyed the Josh trip report since that place and you are near and dear to his heart.
Found some pics of your Preston Peak trip with Jeff and also saw an old vid of climbing at Elephant Rock, Jill was there too. Ahh, the old Humboldt days.
You are in our thoughts and Jeff, Aaron, and I send our love your way.
Vicky Hollenbeck
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nature
climber
Tuscon Again! India! India! Hawaii! LA?!?!
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Jan 12, 2011 - 01:25pm PT
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I worry that this decision I made to live this out in public, as it were, will be viewed as a giant "Poor ME".
you can stop with that thought yesterday. I seriously doubt anyone views it as that. We want you to share.... we want it because we care.
please don't stop - ever.
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Disaster Master
Social climber
Born in So-Cal, left my soul in far Nor-Cal.
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Topic Author's Reply - Jan 12, 2011 - 02:58pm PT
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Found some pics of your Preston Peak trip with Jeff and also saw an old vid of climbing at Elephant Rock, Jill was there too. Ahh, the old Humboldt days.
Cool! Do you have the vid? Nice to hear from you, v.
Thanks to all those with supportive comments.
ß Î Ø T Ç H
climber Jan 12, 2011 - 01:42am PT
In all seriousness, you are prettty-much screwed if you are complaining about anything. Jesus already bought back your (every) solution. A quick fix might be listen to some Norvel Hayes and/or Kenneth Copeland Mp3s or tapes.
What?! No help AT ALL, BIOTCH. How could your approach do any good?
Pure blather.
Now back to the sane folks:
I am in the hospital now. The drug seems to not be working much anymore. They will keep me on it for one more week, just in cse it kicks in again.
Other than that, it is wait until the next trial, or interlukin 2... Good grief.
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Iclimb5.1
climber
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Jan 12, 2011 - 03:07pm PT
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Yeah, I have the vid, an old VHS but still running. I can send it to you if you'd like. Need your address for that, you can send me a Facebook message if so. I could post the pics of Preston on here if you'd like.
Hang in there, Paul.
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SCseagoat
Trad climber
Santa Cruz
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Jan 12, 2011 - 07:29pm PT
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It's never been a "poor me". thread. It's been a powerful thread unbelievably full of humanity. I am so glad I got to meet you in December.
You said you are in the hospital...which one...and for several days or just an overnighter? Susan
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Lynne Leichtfuss
Trad climber
Will know soon
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Jan 13, 2011 - 01:14am PT
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Biotch, not sure what you're saying.
Disaster is certainly not screwed if he complains. My best friend jesus says he's there for us just for those circumstances. He hears us, loves us and helps us. He most certainly would not get upset when we tell him all our troubles.
Don't know what you mean when you say, "jesus bought back all our troubles." I do know he is with us in our struggles.
Finally ..... Dude, "Quick Fix" ?? "Listen to Hayes and or Copeland". Our friend Mr. Master is very sick. These guys are humans. They aren't God. Best for our friend here is to talk to real jesus and read things that count like the Psalms. Jess sayin' imho.
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Wayno
Big Wall climber
Seattle, WA
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Jan 13, 2011 - 02:47am PT
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Paul, I don't know you man, but that picture of you with the kid and the wife looking on spoke volumes of emotion to me. I can't get it out of my head. I not only saw a lot of pain, but also a lot of fear. Coming from a climber, it kinda scares me a bit. Don't ever be afraid to ask us here, or even me personally, for any kind of help you think that could be provided and above all, don't be afraid to ask for a miracle, they happen everyday. I'll say one thing, your eyes look they are wide open. All three of them.
Live Upfull! And that could mean a lot of things.
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Anastasia
climber
hanging from a crimp and crying for my mama.
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Jan 13, 2011 - 02:52am PT
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I believe in you.
Anastasia
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MH2
climber
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Jan 13, 2011 - 01:00pm PT
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Disaster Master,
I don't see anything but well varnished truth in your posts. Very impressive considering how hard it may be to have a clear head in your situation.
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drunkenmaster
Social climber
santa rosa
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Jan 13, 2011 - 01:03pm PT
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fukn aaarrrgghh!!! for you my bro. i see hope in your pics and i feel it in my heart for you. and hell yeh when you recover you will be light for sending 5.13 again :) many prayers and much love for you.
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Lynne Leichtfuss
Trad climber
Will know soon
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Jan 13, 2011 - 05:35pm PT
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Wow, what do you know ? A concensus has been achieved on the Taco. We all care about Diaster Master !!!!!! As Wayno said, let us know if there is anything concrete we can do to help. Peace, lynne
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