ZM, Cancer, and the end of a Dream

I feel like I've let people down

Here is to bravery and balls and to someone..(you) who has tons of both!

I find myself prone to lightheadedness and short dizzy spells, which is probably not the best thing to have in the middle of a hook lead.

"maybe you climbed so that eventually you could survive even cancer"

Climbers Rise Above Cancer. Even when we feel like we fail to red-point, let alone on-site, we WILL try again. That is the difference between a soul who collapses and a soul who soars.

But on a sensible note - My son has never climbed. If I were to take him to Tenaya, Toulumne (before treatment kicks in), to learn the basics and do some Easy climbs (maybe up to 5.7 or so) just so he can take in the atmosphere and enjoy himself at the same time

We all will follow someday and that is a fact, but it seems you get the lead on this pitch.

Even three days ago he told us he thought he might be able to climb again. You will Ian, you will.

Climbers Rise Above Cancer. Even when we feel like we fail to red-point, let alone on-site, we WILL try again. That is the difference between a soul who collapses and a soul who soars.

"The most terrifying fact of the universe is not that it is hostile
but that it is indifferent; but if we can come to terms with this
indifference and accept the challenges of life within the boundaries of
death — however mutable man may be able to make them — our existence as
a species can have genuine meaning and fulfillment. However vast the
darkness, we must supply our own light."
--Stanley Kubrick

may god's love show up in special ways at this hard time and
be a strong anchor, moving you through, and may love
be the balm to help the pain...


god bless... we are all here for you...

be the balm to help the pain...

I climbed my last El cap route about 26 years ago. Since that time. there's been some key negatives in my life, mainly, alcoholism and cancer. But I can say this with 100% certainty - since that last climb, even in my darkest hours, not one single day in my life has gone by where I haven't envisioned myself back on the big stone. Often, when I couldn't sleep, just picturing myself pasting a head or lounging in a portaledge would be enough to calm my mind down and get me to sleep.
So almost a year ago (and I'm 53 now), I started planning out my comeback to the vertical world - I had finally beaten alcohol (so far, and one day at a time), and in November (last year), I would be declared "cancer free". So this was going to be my gift from me to me - going back to what I loved the most.
I trained like a madman, and slowly but surely, built up a modern wall rack (my first El Cap route was before camming devices were available). I set my sights on ZM, and this was to be a solo - something I had never done. Mark Hudon literally taught me how to solo correctly and efficiently through many emails, complete with videos and photos, and chats on the phone - the man is SUCH a wealth of knowledge!
Fast forward to 3 weeks ago - I was sober still and had been declared "cancer free" last November. Life was good! Then I had a routine blood test for an unrelated issue. As soon as my oncologist got a copy of the test, he IMMEDIATELY ordered a CT scan. 2 days later, I'm in his office and get a brick in the face - cancer was BACK - in a big way. So they order the PET scan. Not only do I have cancer in the lung, liver, 2 lymph node masses, and possibly the spine, I've also got a failing kidney, which they need to put a stent in to restore its function.
Alright, so I've got cancer -I beat it once, and I'll do it again. But this is pretty bad timing, seeing as I'm supposed to leave for the ditch in 10 days from today. But the kidney thing is my worst enemy right now. It throws off your electrolyte and enzyme balance, and hinders red blood cell formation, causing anemia, which in turn causes fatigue, shortness of breath, increased hear rate, etc. So THAT'S why I couldn't finish a 27 mile bike ride 3 night ago - something that is so EASY for me
So it's the 11th hour now, and I'm pretty crushed. With big time cancer treatment coming up, I know this is probably the only chance I'm gonna get to live out my dream. I was hoping to keep climbing until I was too old to do it, but that's over with now.
My gut is telling me - "Don't be light, just go!" And I feel like I CAN climb - I just can't carry the bags up to the base or off the top, and am having a hell of a time trying to find a summit team.
Stage 4 cancer with a failing kidney, and I still want to solo El Cap - people who aren't climbers think I'm absolutely nuts!
I meet with the doctors on Thursday - they've already told me to go, but they don't know how much this kidney thing is affecting me. But I HAVE to do it!! I've worked too hard for this, only to get bitch-slapped by cancer again!
Whatever happens, SOOO much thanks to Hudon, and to Ekat and GAGner for keeping the stoke alive!!! Oh yeah... and F**K cancer!

Ian Gill

You don't even have to be religious, but just believe that there is something on this earth that is more powerful to yourself. For instance, man could never build Half Dome or create the Sierras. And that is good enough for me - to know that there is a power greater than man. TRY praying to that power and turn your problems over to it - take the weight off your shoulders, relax, take it all in, and regain that sense of self Learn to love yourself, and you'll realize what a tragic waste it would be to just do away with yourself. Life can be great again - persevere and believe in it.

Ian Gill


Capt Kirk talks about "hugging the mountain". Gee I feel all warm and fuzzy.

But "highly illogical"! Beam me up Scotty, I've done boogied myself out!

Keep following your dreams, and continue to take good care of each other!

I am so sorry to see this news...
Sending Heartfelt condolences out to ...Michelle, Trevor, Audrey, and Ian's friends and family

when god lets my body be

From each brave eye shall sprout a tree fruit that dangles therefrom

the purpled world will dance upon
Between my lips which did sing

a rose shall beget the spring
that maidens whom passion wastes

will lay between their little breasts
My strong fingers beneath the snow

Into strenuous birds shall go
my love walking in the grass

their wings will touch with her face
and all the while shall my heart be
With the bulge and nuzzle of the sea

e.e. cummings

We're all just pilgrims on this road.

Actually, climbski2...Ian would have used his pee bottle.

Gone but not forgotten peeps let them know where still here and if you can aford a buck or two throw it to Ian's family to help with the burdens of health care.

Silver.

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We've been a community for long enough now to have weathered the passing of many of our friends over these years together. With each passing we are reminded we too shall pass this way, each in our own time.

And for all the various on an off topic bickering it's in these somber threads supporting and bidding friends farewell where where see the best of us. Ian, glad to have been able to learn about your through your friends here - farewell and godspeed.