The 'illusion' jgill speaks of has kept me strong and returned me to health through many trying times.
Perspective and attitude are within your control.
Be consistent with your training and know this will benefit your progress. When motivation evaporates, put your head down and keep working, knowing that this is what you need to do to return to health.
Be selfish and stubborn with your health. Hold onto it as if your life depends on it.
might want to look into using growth hormone (HGH) or if that is too hard to find (it is illegal after all) then look into these injectible peptides: CJC1295 without DAC, GHRP2, GHRP6, and Ipamorelin. You need the first one and one of the latter three combined together as daily injections 2-3 times. This will boost GH levels to that of a 20 year old man and your recovery will astound your doctor provided you are doing it in conjunction with rehab exercises and a sound diet.