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prickle

Gym climber
globe,az
Dec 29, 2012 - 06:51pm PT
best wishes brother, hope it all works out.
Michelle Gill

climber
Dec 30, 2012 - 02:04pm PT
I thank everyone for their empathy and for your generous purchases. Ian spent a year putting this gear together and training for a solo climb up ZM. It was about 3 weeks till climb time when his cancer returned 10 fold. He said it hurt more to not make that climb than it did knowing his cancer had returned. He was going to go anyway, but the cancer reared it's ugly head to quickly and he was not able. Selling his gear was a heart-wrenching move that I knew I had to make. Poor Ian, he was going to be celebrating 5 years cancer free, and instead found that he was dying. He felt like a failure because there was no savings or life insurance, just bills. I told him I didn't care about any of that, I just loved him. He whispered to me that he had his gear, to sell it, and to trust Mark Hudon. My husband hadn't climbed a big wall for close to 3 decades, but he never lost his heart & soul for Climbing. I don't know why I'm writing this, I think I just wanted you to know him just a little bit better. Thank you for reading it.
Mark Hudon

Trad climber
Hood River, OR
Dec 30, 2012 - 03:26pm PT
Well, I just picked up Ian's gear in Portland, I have it all now and will be starting to send it out soon.

On the drive back to Hood River, I was thinking about Ian and him buying all this gear and fondling it, like we all do, dreaming about using it up on El Cap. Dreaming how he'd use a hook or place a cam and how he'd feel, moving onto it, far up on El Cap, being scared, sweaty, happy, hearing the Swallows, the wind, the monkeys on the Bridge. We all do that.

I haven't actually touched any of the gear yet but I think I might cry a little when I do.
Michelle Gill

climber
Dec 30, 2012 - 03:28pm PT
Thank you Mark, I wish above all else that he could have made that climb. Yep, he fondled all the gear, and when he couldn't sleep he would think of the tedious placement of some of it (sorry I don't know all the lingo), and it would help him sleep. Maybe when you go through the stuff, you'll feel the love the Ian, Trevor and I had for each other. Sorry to be so sappy, I'm just in one of those moods of missing him very badly.
SofCookay

climber
Dec 30, 2012 - 04:25pm PT
Hi Michelle,

I am so very sorry for your loss - my heart breaks for you and your family.

Thank you for sharing more about Ian - I had actually contacted him when he first posted this thread and I tried to arrange for him to go up a few pitches with my partner, Kate, and her climbing partner, Erik, on their spring El Cap route. He wanted to, but was having too many medical issues at the time.

I hope that this thread offers you some comfort during this difficult time - we all grieve with you.

Sonya

Michelle Gill

climber
Dec 30, 2012 - 06:34pm PT
Wow Sonya, that was you? He told me about it and he was beaming with pride that people cared enough to make those kind of offers. Thank you for that!
Mark Hudon

Trad climber
Hood River, OR
Jan 1, 2013 - 08:52pm PT
I have all of Ian's gear now, aside from the two ropes, I'll be getting those in a couple of weeks.
Thanks go out to Cory and Shelley McCandless, Greg Stock and his mother in law, Martha.

I'm going to start sending some items out in the next few days. Bear with me here, I have two big tubs of gear and have to sort through everything, figure out who gets what, generate some shipping labels, box the stuff up and send it out. Even aside from Ian's gear, I have a busy two weeks coming up and then I'm getting an operation on my hand on the 15th.
Mark Hudon

Trad climber
Hood River, OR
Jan 1, 2013 - 10:26pm PT
Just sold a bunch of biners!
Michelle Gill

climber
Jan 2, 2013 - 12:47am PT
Holiday gear bump
SofCookay

climber
Jan 2, 2013 - 09:05am PT
Mark, don't forget, I'm interested in small stoppers/hexes/cams!

SCseagoat wins the necklace. Michelle, do you have a PayPal account that she could deposit the money directly to? Or do you prefer a check?

Sonya
Mark Hudon

Trad climber
Hood River, OR
Jan 2, 2013 - 10:11am PT
Sonya, there a bunch of old, wired stoppers and nuts that will be great for want you do. I have to call someone else about the same batch of gear but I'm sure there is enough to go around. That is my project for tonight.

If all goes well, I'll send out about ten packages today and in the next few days! I could be Christmas a over again!

Again, don't take the political threads here on ST for the definition of everyone on ST. I've received many wonderful emails from people who "don't really need the gear" but just want to help out.
People tell me that I'm so good for doing this, but really, its totally selfish of me since I get to deal with so many great people! You are all awesome!
SofCookay

climber
Jan 2, 2013 - 10:19am PT
Thanks, Mark - if I could get maybe 5 - 8 small ones, that would be awesome.
couchmaster

climber
pdx
Jan 2, 2013 - 11:19am PT
sofcookie, whats your address I'll send you some old sh#t, err, Chouinard wired stoppers. Your donation was appreciated by more than just the family. Good on you for jumping in and helping out.
Mark Hudon

Trad climber
Hood River, OR
Jan 2, 2013 - 01:48pm PT
Am sending out about 10 packages and a big ol check to Michelle today!

Many, many thanks!
Ron Anderson

Trad climber
Soon to be Nipple suckling Liberal
Jan 2, 2013 - 01:51pm PT
In the realm of mankind, this is a far better thing you do, than any FA ever! Spirit points for you Mr Hudon..
Michelle Gill

climber
Jan 2, 2013 - 02:03pm PT
Many, many spirit points, Mr. Hudon.
SCseagoat

Trad climber
Santa Cruz
Jan 2, 2013 - 02:06pm PT
I'm happy to be the recipient of one of Sonya 's pieces of art and benefitted a great family. Where should I send the $?

Susan
Michelle Gill

climber
Jan 2, 2013 - 02:15pm PT
Hey Sonya, I don't have a paypal account, so you can send me a check if that's ok....Michelle Gill
469 Tourmaline Way
Redding, CA 96003
And thanks to folks like you, I still live here!! Sooo much appreciation.
SCseagoat

Trad climber
Santa Cruz
Jan 2, 2013 - 03:59pm PT
Hi Michelle, I'm the high bidder on Sonya's piece. I will send the check directly to you, thanks for the addy.

Susan
m_jones

Trad climber
Carson City, NV
Jan 2, 2013 - 06:25pm PT
He said it hurt more to not make that climb than it did knowing his cancer had returned.

HI Michelle - Mark told me about Ian a year ago when he coaxed me out of climbing retirement to climb El Cap after not being up there for 30 years. The quote above really hits home.

The gear I was able to purchase from you has a very special place in my heart. Very much like obtaining treasured family heirlooms. Which I guess it is as we are all a climbing family. Especially on this thread.
Ian's gear will be put to good use. I know Mark cannot wait to watch ME put up Ian's ledge this fall on El Cap.

Thank you - I wish you and your son well.

Max Jones
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