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Largo

Sport climber
The Big Wide Open Face
Aug 26, 2013 - 12:27am PT
Read the passage, "How it works," not as a suggestion, but as literal truth, because it is.
happiegrrrl

Trad climber
www.climbaddictdesigns.com
Aug 26, 2013 - 10:54am PT
Let's NOT forget that the AA Big Book also says that it is "Progress, not perfection."

The only thing I think I've been able to do 100% right has been to not pick up that first drink. Oftentimes I think I have more in common with the newbie counting days than the long-time sober.

I still struggle - daily - with the most basic facets of life, like interacting with others, being able to foresee the consequences of my actions and inactions, the Steps. Oh yes, I struggle with the Steps. I do tend to believe there is quite a bit of grace in that thing which is sobriety. It allows us to blunder and stumble and still "be sober."


Today is my anniversary and today I am living with a realization of how a previous negligence of activity has compounded in a way that I look back at and say "HOW could you not have realized...???" It does not feel good. I had hoped I had "stopped digging" the hole I was in, but noooo....

And yet, here I am, sober.


10b4me

Ice climber
Wishes-He-Was-In-Arizona
Aug 26, 2013 - 11:00am PT
Good for you Terrie.
TwistedCrank

climber
Bungwater Hollow, Ida-ho
Aug 26, 2013 - 11:03am PT
Practice these principles in all our affairs.


Just sayin.
happiegrrrl

Trad climber
www.climbaddictdesigns.com
Aug 26, 2013 - 11:36am PT
^ Followed in the Big Book - directly - with:
Many of us exclaimed, "What an order! I can't go through with it." Do not be discouraged. No one among us has been able to maintain anything like perfect adherence to these principles. We are not saints. The point is, that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection.
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Aug 26, 2013 - 05:42pm PT
going to 2 meetings today because a brother from my noon meeting is doing his first step at the meeting tonight.

Higher power can be the collective consciousness of everyone in the meeting, doesn't have to be "god".
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Aug 27, 2013 - 05:01pm PT
bump for sobriety!

Got to hear a first step last night and it brought a tear or two to my eye.
Jaybro

Social climber
Wolf City, Wyoming
Aug 27, 2013 - 05:45pm PT
Good point on the 'god thing' S. Leeper! I always bring it up to reassure non believers like my self that there are non-theist, esp non-christian ways to sobriety. I interpret what you and others say, about not pining down the"higherforce" as something along the lines of, don't deny yourself the help and benefits of AA because of a "god" sticking point!

And, I fully agree! I'd like to think we're getting at the same thing fom differing points of view; An important life lesson in general!

That said, this can be a hard time for me as well. Yesterday is not only a coue Tacos' birthday, it's also Lucille day, the anniversary of the Fa of a climb in 1988 that changed a lot of the way I view things, and shaped my climbing life afterwards. All three of these things give me confidence and strength. Coming off that, I'm always caught by surprise to be a little down on the 27th. And every year I have to go through a thought process and remember that it was this day in 1979 that my father died of pancreatic cancer at age 56. He's also responsible in many ways for where I am as a climber, we sort of learned to climb together.
It's a funny year this year, as its the first year that I've reached an age beyond what he lived to. On top of that is the ambient sadness of losing Blitzo so recently in such a similar way.
I'm not in danger of drinking today. I'm in Vedauwoo, climbed and ran this morning; now I'm armed with a big gulp and back up seltzer, to go scope out tomorrow's project and then grill some salmon.

The thing that sobriety does for me in all this. Is that I can take theses extremes of high and low, and experience them, sort them out, and order them in my life. Which works a lot better for me than being overwhelmed by each and trying to dull it down, in an effort to control the feelings, with alcohol.

There are times when you need to be happy, and times its appropriate to feel sad. That's the joy, of life!
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Aug 27, 2013 - 06:21pm PT
Thank you Jay for sharing your feelings here.

Alot of us addicts, have stuffed or sedated our feelings with drugs, booze, sex, or what have you, for so long, expressing how we feel can be a new experience.

Love you all!
bvb

Social climber
flagstaff arizona
Aug 27, 2013 - 06:29pm PT
Today is a good day.
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Aug 27, 2013 - 06:54pm PT
That's great, Bob!
Credit: S.Leeper
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Aug 27, 2013 - 09:55pm PT
Writing out my first step right now and it is kicking my ass.

I'm having trouble piecing together 2 sober days in a row.
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Aug 28, 2013 - 01:11am PT
Thanks Chief
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Aug 28, 2013 - 01:11am PT
It's a new day and a good one at that.
bvb

Social climber
flagstaff arizona
Aug 28, 2013 - 02:33am PT
They tell you "don't make any major decisions in your first year." Has anybody read the third step?! Then they tell you "don't make any major changes in your first year", then five minutes later they say "you gotta change everything!" They say "don't judge anybody in AA" then in the next breath they say "stick with the winners!" WTF, I LOVE this shit!
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Aug 28, 2013 - 04:46am PT
haha ain't it the truth
TwistedCrank

climber
Bungwater Hollow, Ida-ho
Aug 28, 2013 - 10:25am PT
The program - any good program really - is filled with paradoxes and contradictions.

If pondering them keeps you from drinking, then the program was - is - a success.
Kenygl

Trad climber
Salt Lake City
Aug 28, 2013 - 11:27am PT
What it takes is a clear mind. Something which folks reading the literature for the first times rarely possesses. Stick around, it gets better.
S.Leeper

Social climber
somewhere that doesnt have anything over 90'
Aug 28, 2013 - 05:33pm PT
rough day, serenity prayer time.
Largo

Sport climber
The Big Wide Open Face
Aug 28, 2013 - 05:38pm PT
Been on a dry drunk all day. TIme for some 11th step (meditation)

JL
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