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Norwegian

Trad climber

dancin on the tip of god's middle finger

Topic Author's Original Post - May 4, 2015 - 11:09am PT

except the silence that ensues
where once her voice gracefully interrupted...

...when you sit upon the edge
of your child's vacant bed,

and you reach out your hand into
the infinite emptiness where
once her warm grasp met yours,

and her sweet voice graced
my ears,

"hi daddy."

now. silence.
now. no warmth.
now a vast emptiness engulfs me.
one from which the cosmos
have not yet authored an escape.

more of me died than is left.
she is gone.

the horizons will clap.
and she won't be there to bow.

all that i hear anymore,
is silence.

because her voice was everything.

i understood.
through her.

love.
it is a fun term to toy with.
a concept for contemplation.

perhaps a crack in contraception.

but now that she's gone,
i take it seriously.

it offers no encore.

i am alone.
and quite sad.
and immensely afraid of the silence
that will shout into my ear forever.

i can only
embrace now's shadow.

Studly

Trad climber

May 4, 2015 - 11:12am PT

I also am experiencing the same Norwegian. Your writing brought tears to my eyes.

Norwegian

Trad climber

dancin on the tip of god's middle finger

Topic Author's Reply - May 4, 2015 - 11:31am PT

the mess that she left
i used to complain about.

really, i did not mind
picking up after her;
though i intended to instill
within her a tidiness
that i believed would empower her.

but now there is only order.
and i miss the dream detritus
that she left.

everywhere.

because everywhere
could not accommodate her capacity.

Big Mike

Trad climber

May 4, 2015 - 11:41am PT

:( Sounds like the poison is spreading bud. Sorry to hear it bro. I wish you the best and hope you can find some solutions. If you stay true and remain there for her, she will come around eventually. It's tough for kids when they see their role models are human also.